Some things are just hard.

November 27, 2013


Ever since i got the message of how the world works, i feel sorry. For myself of course! I gotta admit, that i will never be a like everyone else, who can run when in a hurry, who can walk/squat if needed to, who can wear anything without without having people thinking "Why she's wearing that? Doesn't she know that her bum is so flat and small that even my bare fist is curvier and bigger?". I know that being like me is like sky away from my dreams. Im not belittling myself but i get it when people chooses someone who can help themselves in a difficult situations without tripping. 

One thing i noticed is that, a person will stick to you if you can give something in return that will give an advantage to them. I've seen it, ive played it, but i kept my mouth shut about it because i don't want something to heat up. That if i say something about it, i will lose something, something that is very special to me, something that if i will take a risk i know ill be paying. And i know that that price is "LONELINESS". Tell me, who among you here loves being alone? Loves eating out at a resto alone? Loves walking down alone? Loves sitting down in a class alone? Certainly not me.


Eventhough im an introvert, i still prefer to be with everybody if im out in public. Because i don't want people to say that "Oh such a poor poor girl, she's alone. Doesn't she have any friends? Oh i know! Because she's limp and nobody wants to be friends with her." Which is definitely false because i have quite a few hand-picked friends, i just don't want other people to think of me 'that way' because even if i kinda am, i still resist to be 'it' and i just don't want to be 'it.' Maybe it's safe to say that im a clingy person who is afraid being in a place where everybody seems to be face-familiar yet a definitely stranger.


I may put on a cheeks-stretched-eyes-closed-all-teeth-smile but deep down inside i am in pain, because some things are just hard to deal with. Even if i appears to be happy and giddy physically but when you dig a little deeper, im no happy gal at all, i am torn apart like a heart broken woman except i am not broken. But even so, i make ways on how to be happy and one of it is "Do not care about what other people think of you" which is definitely hard because i can't help not to think about it because i am involved in the split seconds they think bad about me. I am that sensitive and i am that open to you guys because it kind of help me get through things with all your sweet and lovely comments of how i can get through that and its very very heartwarming and i love you all for that. I know, these words may not be read but thank you anyway.


On the other side of the note, this look is when my family decided to go to the beach, but was postponed because of some important things. I was a little disappointed at hearing the news about our little getaway being postponed because ive prepared for it, i even gathered all my courage to wear shorts at the beach (my first btw!). At our "supposed little getaway", i throw this outfit out, wearing a breezy white top, flower printed shorts, crocs, and i top it off with a baseball cap. But all things are good because the exchange of not getting there is a satisfied and happy hearts of my parents (some big and great news!).

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114 comments

  1. Oh... you're such a wonderful girl! You look lovely as always and don't worry, I think we all have those times where we feel sorry for ourselves or that everything is so hard yet we put on a mask to show everybody we are okay. Just be strong and pray. :)

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  2. cutie look <33 aww don't be hard on yourself! :( just be yourself and stand strong okay. you can do it
    btw, thanks for sweet comment on my blog. loves xx


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  3. U look very pretty in that outfit. And I can totally relate to what ur feeling... Ive been through it. One thing I learned is that its important to learn to be happy by yourself, because then 'friends' and the company of others becomes a choice and not a necessity.

    Dont care too much what others say/think. Its YOUR life. Live it happily doing what u want :)

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  4. Hello! I am already following the blog and added - to the circle of friends!
    Loved the photos.
    kisses

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  5. Great post. I think if it was up to us, we definitely wouldn't choose to be alone. However, sometimes it's necessary. I rather be alone then with bad company. LOL
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    1. You're right Kim, but im just afraid of being alone even though i am a loner.

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  6. such a cute look! your shorts are adorable :D

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  7. Another great post from you Sarah! DOn't overthink a lot (what an advice from an overthinker lol)
    You know I'm such an overthinker too, and yup I love to be alone. SOmetimes it better to be alone 'cause it makes more sense.
    It's always nice to be in a company of friends but everyone should be cautious about the authenticity of the people around us.
    It's nice too hear from you again btw,after so many days of me not opening my blogger account hehe

    love lots,
    Tin

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  8. cute short :D

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  9. Hey don't sweat it, we all get those moments.Love the prints on your shorts.

    xoxo
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  10. What a beautiful look! I really love your shorts :) xo

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  11. Hi, thankyou for the comment on my blog! Your tshirt is so cool!
    Follow u :)

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  12. Great look, shorts are really nice!

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  13. great look, you look so pretty!

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  14. Cool look!
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  15. you look so cute ! would you like to follow each other :) xx
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  16. Love your style! You look beautiful! Thanks for your sharing and posting!
    Have a nice day!


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  17. love your lace top! sporty dainty ;D

    xoxo,
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  18. You are beautiful in your own way. You have a new follower here.

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  19. Pretty outfit.
    Always be an optimist
    the world is nice place to be in.
    Keep smiling.

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  20. Great post! I love your outfit, especially the shorts! You have a really nice blog, I'm following you now on gfc and bloglovin. Checkout my blog and if you like it follow me too. Let's keep in touch :D

    xoxo

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  21. your shorts are pure love =)

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  22. Such a simple and cool look!! LOve your shorts <3

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  23. I love this look. Simply cute! Followed you :) xx

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  24. Thank you for your lovely post and for openly sharing your thoughts. I must admit I quite enjoy being on my own, not all the time though. I have two little kids, so time on my own is something that I call special right now, something I really crave and miss.

    Following you on Bloglovin and G+. Would be great if you could follow back. Lovely Sunday!

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    1. aww thank you Mingaile, i guess i should get used to it :)

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  25. hey cutie pie..love ur blog..wanna follow each other?

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  26. Follower# 103
    Lovely Blog :)
    Enjoyed reading the Posts.
    Following you. I hope you follow back and return the support too :D
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  27. very nice :)

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  28. love the top! <3

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  29. Cute outfit!

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    Take a look at our blog and let us know. :)

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  30. nice outfit

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  31. Love your shirt, you are so pretty

    Ciao ciao

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  32. Aw, I think everybody feels this way sometimes! Stay positive and don't sweat the small stuff :) :)
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  34. I liked this white and pink outfit, you look cute!

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  35. Aw I totally know what you mean about feeling lonely and hating the feeling. :x I have the same feelings haha it's silly but I hate sitting by myself whenever there's people around me... I feel like they're all watching/judging me! I guess I feel more sheltered around friends! ^^ Cute sweater, by the way! I followed <3
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    1. aww thank you Morgan, glad you feel what i felt too :)

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  39. Thank you for your lovely comment on my blog.
    I think we should follow each other, maybe on social media also, just follow me and let me know, so i can follow right back!
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  40. to have these very few good friends is what counts the most and instead of trying to fit in other peoples' picture we should always do what feels right to us and our lives. who are they to judge? but often, we tend to over think and others aren't even interested in our business at all - still we believe so.. just do your thing and try to live life as happy as possible. easier said than done, i know! xo j. von Stereo|typically Me

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  41. Your look is so cute! I have a few really close friends and I think that once you find those friends, they will be there with you forever! I think you should stay true to yourself and stay close to the people who love you for who you are and to stay away from those who use you!
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  42. that is really awesome!! I really loved the color..
    the combo is just looking perfect!~!~

    similar stuffs!~!~!~@


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  43. Aww you're a cutie :)

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  44. That is such a cute look! Really like ur top ^^
    xoxo

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  45. You are so cute!! Thanks for your lovely comment on my blog! lets follow each other. I am now following you. Keep in touch girlie <3
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  46. Wow..!! U look so pretty and Awesome in this Outfit.
    Love the Outfit:)

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